It has been over 8 years now. You think I would be able to see instantly signs of similarity in behaviors to him without reacting like Pavlov's bitch. Obviously a new guy is not going to know about the old guy and how he did me wrong and will just think I am a freak.
Why do we expect them to instantly be able to sort us out? Why do battle on with naieve willfullness, sure that we can battle ghosts and make it all better?
I suppose it is good that I can recognize it for being dumb and irrational.
I can seethe about how he did me wrong but that is a dead end. It is dead and gone.
My name is Jeanette and I have loved.